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-it was a real feast of Lucullus,-only far better." This letter
is very boyish and content with friends and family, and most
unlike a man absorbed in schemes of sinister usurpation, schemes
of which he was so soon to be accused.
In the library at my own house in New York City, a fateful
meeting took place shortly after this last letter came. I confess
to having had serious doubts as to what his answer should be
to that request of the seven governors. Personally, I felt the
sacrifice asked of him was almost too great. I realized perfectly
the great struggle before him and all that it probably would mean, and it seemed to me that he had already given all that was required of just such service to his beloved country. But, just as he felt in 1898 that, having preached war upon Spain, he must
take active part in that war, so in 1912 he came to feel strongly that, having inaugurated certain policies as President which had not been carried out by his successor-having preached the necessity for industrial legislation which had not been backed by those in public authority-it was his duty to bare his breast to the "slings and arrows of outrageous fortune," and accept the position of leader of Progressive Republicanism in order to try to translate into practical reality the ideals which he had upheld before his countrymen. His answer to the seven governors pledged himself to such leadership, and the great upheaval of 1912 took place.
Never before in his varied career had Theodore Roosevelt felt such a sense of loneliness, for many of his nearest and dearest friends were not in sympathy with some of his beliefs in 1912. I shall never forget the great meeting at Carnegie Hall, when he proclaimed "the faith that was in him." He was like an inspired crusader that night when he cast away the notes from which he had occasionally been reading and made the magnificent peroration in which he proclaimed the fact that his doctrine was "Spend and Be Spent," and that no man worthy the name of man would not be willing to be an instrument for the success of his ideals-a broken instrument if need be. He re-