346 My Brother Theodore Roosevelt
-followed in their hearts the hard path that he was bravely treading.
The convention adjourned, and he asked the leadlers to wait until the following day, at least, for his answer to the RoundRobin request which had been sent to him, but he dlid not give much hope that he would look favorably upon their desire that he should allow his name to be put in nomination as candidate for governor. I motored him back to Albany and took the train with him for- New York. In recalling the hours of intercourse that afternoon and early evening, the great impression made upon my mind by his attitude was one of ineffable gentleness. Never was he more loving in his interest about me: and mine; never was he less thoughtful of self. I realized that he needed quiet, and when I found that my seat was in a different car from his, although several people offered to change their, seats with me, I felt that after our drive together, it would do him more good to be alone and read than to try to talk to me. I told him I would order our dinner and would come back for- him when it was time for the meal, and I left him with his usiual book in his hand. When I came back, however, I stood behiind him for a moment or two before making myself known to himi again, and I could see that he was not reading, that his sombrce eyes were fixed on the swiftly passing woodlands and the river, and that the book had not the power of distracting him from the all-embracing grief which enveloped him. When I spokce, however, he turned with a responsive smile, and during our •whole meal gave me, as ever, the benefit of his delightful knowledge of all the affairs of the world.
Only once during our talk did he speak of the Round Robin, and especially of my son's desire that he should be the nominee for governor. He used an expression in discussing the matter which gave me at once a sense of almost physical apprehension. Looking at me gravely, he said: "Coriuine, I have only one fight left in me, and I think I should reserve rmy strength in case I am needed in 1920." The contraction of my heart was